STOUT, jordan joss

[jordan joss stout]

jordan joss stour

" you'll find a way to make me crazy, hazy. "

i want to be in another place i hate when you say

NAME jordan joss stout
GENDER female
NICKNAMES JJ ; roach
AGE 25
MEMBERGROUP local
YEAR/OCCUPATION bartender at dollhouse & pierce the veil's roadie
SEXUALITY homosexual
PLAYED BY ruby croak

you don't understand, you'll see it's not meant to be

HI I'M JORDAN AND THIS IS ME:

"hey guys, we're back with this piece on local up and coming band pierce the veil! here with us now is their roadie, jordan stout! how did you get involved with the band?
well i knew vic; mike and tony from the neighborhood, i was always closer to tony though. anyway, when they got the band together i volunteered their first show to unload and load up their shit. i guess i did a good job eh? -laughs-

when you're not being the band's roadie, what are you doing?
i'm usually just hangin' out -smirks- i mean i like bein' surrounded by positive people so i'm usually with friends. or i'm down at dollhouse, i work down there as a bartender. dollhouse, if you're not from 'round here, is the local bar that's just for lesbians and transwomen who are into women.

so does this mean you're a-
yes. i'm a lesbian, never been with a man and i don't really plan on it.

how did you get into tattoos? and how many tattoos do you have?
oh shit, i literally have no idea. i lost count. but uh- i started gettin' tattoos when i was like fourteen, when you live in the ghetto you end up being a delinquent. -smirks- but uh- after i got out of rehab, and the psychiatric ward, i started drawin' up tattoo ideas and just sort of gettin' them wherever. it was definitely an escape from the old life i was livin'.

how is your relationship with your parents? sounds like you've had a rough life.
definitely a rough life, my dad bailed when my mom was pregnant with me. so i never even met the coward, but my mom and i had a bad relationship too. she had six kids, all different daddies. i was number four, and we were all born addicted to narcotics and cocaine. ma was constantly runnin' around beatin' our asses for no reason, so we all grew up hatin' her. -laughs- we'd runaway, cops would see us and take us back home.

but if you were in fact having an abusive relationship with your mother, wouldn't you tell the police?
ma always taught us to never snitch out, no matter what. plus, if you saw six mixed kids in raggedy clothes all bruised up trying to cross the bridge from the ghetto to the suburbs- people just thought we were comin' in to start some shit. never to get away. sadly though that's just how it was, how it is.

so you pretty much were placed in a stereotype?
oh yeah no doubt. any kid from our neighborhood did, however i did put myself further into it as i got older. by the time i was fourteen i dropped outta school, got tattoos, roamed the streets at night, partied all the time. it was a fuckin' nightmare, the sad thing was though that i thought this was life gave me. like i thought that was my destiny, to end up like those single seventeen year old mothers with three kids standin' in the welfare line.

now you made a single mother comment, but you're a lesbian?
true, but in my neighborhood if you even came off as gay you got jumped instantly. luckily for me though i could hold my own, so if girls wanted to fight me i did. shit if guys wanted to fight me, i did. so people never gave me a hard time when i dressed masculine and walked around with the boys. and no one ever made any comments when i wasn't dating or hookin' up with any guys. so i had to hide my feelin's towards women, but i never had to hide everythin' else that came along with it. i pretty much just had to be like 'naw not my type' when it came to guys.

well, what would you say to any kids or teenagers dealing with anti-gay bullying, their sexuality, or even gender identity?
well to those bein' bullied, never let some one tell you who you are. doesn't matter if you're gay, bisexual, asexual, pansexual, queer, questionin', trans*, or anythin' in between. you just stay true to you, keep your head up. i mean when it comes to comin' to terms with your sexuality, no one can tell you what you are is wrong. no one can tell you when you have to come out, or put yourself in a relationship. it's all on you, when you're ready you'll know- trust me. and i've dealt with gender identity issues, i've tried the whole gender-bendin' ordeal but i realized that i wasn't tryin' to be a man just to be with a woman. it's the same thing with sexuality, it's all up to you. no one can tell you that you're wrong. and if any of you are havin' struggles and would like personal advice, my facebook jordan joss stout; tumblr jjstout.tumblr.com; and my twitter, @jjroach is always open for ya'll. or even email me at [e-mail]

that's very inspiring that you're so passionate about the youth jordan, where do you think it comes from?
growin' up i know what it was like to have no one, to feel alone all the time no matter what you were doin'. i've done some stupid things to cope with pain, and i don't wanna see kids go through what i had to. so i keep my doors open twenty four seven. and it's not even just about kids within the lgbt, plus, community. any one with any problems can come and talk to me, i've been through hell and back the least i could do is share my story to help others avoid that road.

well jordan thank you very much for answering our questions, i truly believe people will see a new side of you. any last words?
support local music! come out to a pierce the veil show man i'm tellin' you these guys are crazy."

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